Overcoming through ministry

I write. Whether or not any one ever reads this blog. My deliverance. My growth. My healing is through this ministering so I write. I am literally driven to it. Scriptures crowd my mind and find their way through and out. My process is usually that God drops the memory of a scripture in my heart and I am inspired by it.

Today's scripture? Matthew chapter 21. Initially I was thinking about the portion of the scripture that spoke of how we can fall on the rock and be broken or the rock can fall on us and we can be crushed, but when I read the whole context and asked God to open my understanding the scripture became so much more powerful to me.

The general context of this scripture is Jesus fulfilling prophesy as His crucifixion is imminent. It is also a look into His very human side. This scripture talks about Him beating the money changers out of the temple--done out of anger, healing people--done out of compassion, and speaking to the chief priests and elders in parables when they questioned the source of His authority--done out of frustration.

There is a very special power in each of us. It's like how a super hero is formed or something--I mean there's always a vat of toxic waste that deforms a person, but also makes the person superhuman. We each have something that we struggle with--thank you Pastor Christine--something that becomes righteous indignation to us--it is our toxic waste. As we wrestle to overcome that thing; God blesses us to understand that our deliverance is in turning it over to Him by realizing that we cannot handle it on our own.

I cannot handle my fears on my own. They are born out of not having a mother and out of being abused by my father for many many years. They are born out of not trusting anyone because the person that I was supposed to trust misused me and stole from me. I learned to cope with that and became an adult as a child. My healing is in these posts. It is in talking to people after service. It is in calling people and seeing how they are doing. It is in the Community Bible Studies. It is in diving into the very thing that is the hardest for me to do--communicate.

This is why it is so important to stir up the gift that is within you--your spiritual survival depends on it. The soul that you are needs your ministry to thrive. The enemy never wants you to realize your purpose--he never wants you to see yourself as God sees you. Fortunately for you, the devil is a liar! God says, you're good enough! He says you're valuable. He says you're needed in the Kingdom. He says your healing and your ability to overcome any circumstance is in your ministering; it's in your reaching out beyond yourself. It's in your thinking about someone else. It's in our missing someone on Sunday and calling and checking on them. It's in your mothering. It's in your administration. It's in your singing. It's in your preaching. It's in your social work. It's in our edification and encouraging. It's in your giving. It's in your children's ministry. It's in your evangelism. It's in whatever God gave you. What you need is in what God gave you. Open your hands. Open your heart. Open your mind. Change your perspective. For the people had a mind to work . . .